Saturday, September 02, 2006
ARGH!!!!The "walking disease" has passed on her cold to me!!!!The autumn is definitely here andof coz, people will start getting all these "autumn sickness" and now am one of them!!!hehehe Now my whole family is having a cold!!!but I guess it's cool....I guess it prepares us from the coldness, the laziness in the autumn...
Yippee!!!My birthday is coming soon and I will be 19!!!Yesh, the big 19...well, not really looking forward to this day but you noe, juz trying to put on a happy face =) And besides, life is too short to be mourning over wats done so peepz out there who r depress, sad, broken-hearted or watever the heck it is, juz dun waste your time on doing NUTHING!!!!Do sumthing about ur life when u have the opputunity to do it, dun juz sit around coz then nuthing will be done!!!Understand, Understood???Now tats is done so am happy tat I say it out hehehe....
Nywayz, gotta go and do my laundry now so LTRZzZz....=)
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Friday, September 01, 2006
Stayed up all nite to watch Shakira & Christina perform and I can tell ya that it was really worth while waiting for them to perform!!=)...Especially Christina's performance, I think it was the best, she looks perfect in tat red dress and the song.....Perfection!!!!
Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you
What a GREAT song, such great lyrics....went straight to my heart and I would really like to dedicate tis song to sumone special...=)
Okie dokz, have been busy with school lately but i've managed and am glad to say tat school is juz getting more and more exciting!!!Been going back and forth, to school in the afternoon and home doing sum family thingy in the morning and it's damn tiring man but it's cool, i guess :-P...You noe, I can't wait till I graduate!!!!STUDENTEN!!!!hehehe....Nywayz, am saving up now to celebrate christmas in Glasgow wit our friends....am soo excited, i can't wait and guess wat???The time I'm going to Glasgow is the SALE time!!!!SHOPPING, here I come!!!!I ma shop and shop and shop til i can't shop no more haha (exaggerate abit lah)...
I feel like calling him now but...nah, I have to stop...I dun wanna be the so-called "third leg", the mean, stealing others bf bitch hehehe...so i guess tis is it wit him...Am glad tat I got to know him, he's a great person with great thinking and most of all heart and I love him for tat, in fact, I will always love him for tat and he will always have a great, special place in my heart!!
Gotta go peepz...PEACEEEEEEEE...hehehe
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Hello peepz!!!Yesh, am finally back...hehehehe....I've finally decided to blog again *winkz*...Well, how r u guyz doin??Miss me??hahaha, i bet not...but it's all cool...Anywayz, am sitting here being all bored and I've got nada to do so i've decided to blog in my thoughts alil'...=)
Well well...How have life been treating ya'll?? My answer for myself will be...., NOT so very good and trust me, it's been better than this...But I guess the saying "Life's a bitch" is somehow true...not totally but partially true for me. Life is full of ups and down, and as for me...., I've been through a WHOLE lot for the past few months (trust me on that)...at times I feel like I've missed on my childhood (LoL, tat makes me sound old!!), seems like it's all going soooo very damn fast that i dun even have the time to STOP and enjoy the moment or to even really SUCK in the whole memories of that very moment!! But yea, yea, tats over and done and I can't turn back the time (tho i wish i cud.. :-P)
Anywayz, after the past few months going thru all the trouble!! I can finally take a break (tho not fully) and I can say tat I'm proud of myself coz I walked thru the rain and now my life is so much better!!I'm really thankful for my family's help when I had to go thru the rain by myself...they were there rite by my side every single time and am really grateful that my family was there for me and will alwayz be here for me =)
I guess wat I'm trying to say is that am happy where I am now and for now, all I need is basically nuthing apart from my beloved family and my very exciting school!! SImPLICITY is all I want and all I need...No strings attached...No more going crazy over silly things and No more broken hearts for me...For now, at least...And the rest is still unwritten =)
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Life have been stressed up for me lately and i've been feeling down tooz...It's like problems keep coming into my mind, life and thoughts...it's growing like MUSHROOMS u noe but...things is not tat bad coz i have my cutie vanja, darling erika and sweetie nina around me...they are da only peepz giving me advices on wat i shud do and all and u noe...seriously, i dun even noe wat i would do without them...I think i would have been DEAD by now coz with all da problems i'm having....., NOONE could ever b happy with it!!!
Nyways...erika posted sum pix of us to her computer oredi and here they are!!!!*drumrollsss*
Like wat Vanja said...Our Love Is Unbreakable!!!hahah...i was being suntanned (yeah rite!!)...so tat's why u can't see me heheh...*muackz* LOVE YA'LL!!!
It's juz da three of us now...coz the camera maniac is obviously taking da pic for us!!woohooo..!!NAJSSSSSSSSSSS
Oh yea...u juz gotta LOVE gurls coz they noe how to have FUN!!!!especially us!!!
Yesh...tat's all da pix i have for today but my story ain't finish yet, honey!!!heheh...U noe wat??!!...I was sitting wit my mom n dad in da living room juz now...was watching 'Purple Rain'...It's such a sweet and sad movie but i was too AWAY!!! (in my own little world) tat i didn't really watch da film properly...*sigh* i dunno, u noe..i have too much in my mind rite now tat i can be GONE at times but i juz really hope to find da truth to everything n settle it as soon as possible coz u noe...i can't go on like this...This is not the REAL me...the REAL me is a happy-go lucky gurl who shines day n nite no matter when n where....I hope i can go back to the old me again....soon!!!
Oh gosh...SUMMER holiday is in 3 weeks or so n it's sooooo CLOSE!!!!I can't wait but at da same time, i dun want school to end for 3 fucking months man!!!Wat da fuck am i suppose to do??!!!Shit my ass at home for 3 fucking months??!! HELL NO!!!I'm gonna mish my unbreakable CREW n then i'm gonna die if i dun see them...even for one second!!!hahah....
Shit man..., i've got a damn presentation to do tomorroz n am fucking NERVOUS coz am scared i might say da wrong thing n then be GONE to my LaLa land coz of thinking too much...*shivers*...I hope my presentation goes well...am not really prepared tho but i think i can do it...Oh u noe...,next week is gonna be a HELL week...5 damn test in 5 days...in a ROW!!!...This IB programme is really gonna KILL da students u noe...TRUST ME!!!Dun ever choose this programme coz u'll get a heart attack n juz die!!hahahah....
Okie, i seriously think i need to stop now coz i see sum changes in me!!!I'm going CRAZY now!!hahaha....cya'll in awhile!!Buh bye n have fun looking at our gorgeous LOOKS!!!! LoL
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Thursday, May 12, 2005
Yesh!!!!Ma anthem for da week...I wanna break free from him n juz let him go..I noe i might be doing a BIG mistake but u noe...in life, u've juz gotta make mistakes to learn from it n to make u stronger...At this point of time, i feel like i've lost everything i've gain in da past few weeks or months or watever...It feels like she's taking EVERYTHING away from me...I've lost one of my closest friend n i've also lost trust from other people juz coz of sum stupid rumours..n now, i've made up my mind to even lose him before i lose him the way i lost my closest friend coz it hurts more...I've tried to fix it but i guess i'm not so strong now n i guess i juz need rooms for my mistakes to make me much stronger...
I'm seriously confused n i'm seriously hopeless in fixing this problem...I'm falling for him but i guess i'm nuthing for him...Seriously, after today, i feel soo worthless n after SHE did wat SHE did, my heart juz tore into pieces n yes, it hurts like fuck n i'm trying my best to hide it...But for now...I've got a rite to b wrong n nobody can stop me from making my mistakes coz my mom told me once tat ur mistakes will only make u stronger...Tat's exactly wat i have to do..make myself stronger n pull thru this whole shit...
Okie....enough wit tat..i juz wanted to let out the things tat have been bothering me to sumone n this is da only place i could go to to release my pain, heartbreaks n everything...
Nywayz...am having a history test tomorroz n i can't study for it coz sumone in my class took my history book n i dun have an extra so i guess i have to talk to Lars about it n maybe do da fucking test sum other time....*smiles*...Nina is gonna put extention on her hair n i tink i ma follow her..heheh..soo cool u noe...i wanna extend my hair too but my hair is long oredi so pointless heheheh...u noe...sumtimes u juz wanna have da same things ur friend has but u can't always get ur way ok??...heheheh...
U noe....i feel like baking sumthing now..I've been wanting to bake London Almond but then i keep moving it forward n then i become lazy n u noe...heheh...NO LONDON ALMOND!!!...Ouu..u noe wat??...Erika said da sweetest thing yesterday..., she message me on msn out of a sudden n said tat if i ever needed sumone to talk to, she will alwayz be there for me...sweet rite??!!...ohhhh I LOVE HER n snakey n spiky tooz...hehe..I think i was being alil mean towards them today coz i was screaming at Nina n ignoring Vanja n Erika for a moment n guyz, am really sorrie for tat but u noe...this mess is juz hurting me n it pisses me off at da same time n i really didn't noe how to react juz now n I'm REALLY SORRIE!!!!´..*muackz*..I had fun wit ya'll in da train today heheh...missing ya'll oredi u noe!!!...miss me or not??!!...i hope so if not, i'll give each one of ya'll a smack on da head tomorroz...hehehe...*evil laughs*...I dun noe wat i'll ever do without u all in my life, u guyz r always there to lend a shoulder to cry on n u give me lotsa advice n u noe...i thank u guyz for tat..*hugz*
Okie dokie.., i ma go rest n have my time space to think bout things, coz for now, it's all soo fucking complicated n i've gotta fix it before it gets thru my heart really deep...
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Woohooo!!!Got maself a new layout liao...veli nice rite??...heheheh....Okie...sorrie peepz for not blogging alot...I've been busy wit school n all lah bebeh..heheh..I guess u all still waiting patiently for my cat-walk pix rite??...heheh but sorrie...this stupid Martin didn't send me da pix but dun worry it will come sooner or later coz i ma force him to send it to me okie??...*hugz*
Nywayz...,aiyoh keng kawan..I've received many many bad news sey but it's kinda personal so am not gonna share it to the whole world ya...heheh...As u guyz can notice, I've had my asthma attack for da past few days n man!!susah tau nak breathe...but now I've been resting alot so it's getting better n better...
Nuthin much really happened da past few days..It's been ma bro b'day tho n we celebrated it n u noe..my mom treated us to bubble tea!!!Ahhhh...so long oredi u noe...Finally, now i noe where to go for BUBBLE TEA!!!yipeee....but of coz, da bubble tea here is not as good as da bubble tea in Singapore lah but at least sumthing rite??...heheh...
Aiyoh...u noe, i shudn't be blogging now coz am still weak but i have to be loyal rite??...But me friendzz..today will just be a short entry coz now, me wanna go rest ah...Next entry...with lotsa, lotsa pix okie??...cannot promise lah but will try my best to post sum pix for ya..*winkz*
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Monday, May 02, 2005
hahaha...okie am a LAZY BUM huh??...heheh..i noe i've not been blogging for a fucking longggg time but here i am...finally, wit nuthing to do....so...yeapz, i succeed in making my big ass sit on da computer chair heheh...Okie, i noe there's been lotsa drama eversince my latest entry but u noe...I dun care no more coz enough is enough...I'm happy wit who i'm wit now and yey, this thursday is our 1 month together!!!Wohooo...hope we'll last longer...*winkz* I still can't believe I liked him tat long....6 months is no joke n u noe...I've been waiting patiently n i'm finally getting who i want!!!!!Ahhhh...u guyz have no idea how happy i am n u noe things are like going too fast tat it scares me to death coz I'm scared to lose him...n u noe...I've been pretty unfair to my frennies huh??Dun u guyz agree??sneaky, spiky, fishy??U guyz thought i didn't notice tat rite??But i do n am really sorry for tat..Next time, i ma try to be balance n spend time wit ya'll tooz...*promise*..*n cross my heart* hehehe...
Anywayz..., I'm updating juz coz sneaky wanted me to...hehehe...Love her soo much!!!Hey, sneaky, if u're reading this entry then i think u shud noe tat I MISS YA ass woman!!!hahahah when u were away n u shud noe tat u shudn't do dat EVER again OK??!!...heheheh....GOOD....*muackz*...
Yipeee....summer holiday is juz around da corner n yes!!!!I'm still FUCKING jobless!!!wohoo....I dun even noe if tat's good news or bad news..shud i cry or jump in joy heheheh....maybe i shud do both huh??...uh huh!!!....Well....yesh, i'm crazy, loco and insane now heheh....Damn, I've got soo much to share wit ya'll n i dun even noe where to start...I've got many, many pix to show but i still haven't got those pix from my fren yet so just stay wit me n i ma bring ya'll to my 'memory lane' soon...*winkz*...
I've been having GREAT days, da past few weeks, of coz....I juz love it...my friends, my boo, my life n evrything i have...I cud never ask for more coz i noe sumone will always be here to catch my fall...*muackz*.....Ouuu..wanna noe wat i did for maybe 2 weeks ago??!!!Ahhh...I was cat-walking wit YATY!!!..Power u noe...We cat-walked for Daisy's Collection!!!Aiyoh...u guyz shud see my dress...It was simply F-A-B-O-L-O-U-S...It was short, of coz but it was HOT!!!!....n u noe...me and Yaty cat-walked together n people started clapping, da spotlights on us n all attentions was on us!!!Wohooo...am sooo HAPPY for tat...I wish i cud do it again!!!I wanna do it again!!!!...I LOVE da spotlight now n LOVE being da center of attention!!hahah not all da time tho...dun get me wrong ya..*winkz*....ouuu and a guy exchanged number wit me but u noe....I'm TAKEN!!!heheheheh....Okie, okie....i ma continue my 'memory lane' for ya'll sum other time k??Now i wanna go take a shower heheh...*shh* dun tell nyone k??...*muackz*...Love ya'll!!!Especially sneaky, spiky and fishy!!!Wohoooo...
Be patience kiez??...Pictures coming soon..My bro's comp fucking slow man...so i'll do it ltrz instead...*muackz*
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